Saturday, August 8, 2015

REMOVED

Full beard and strapping body aside, the bartender is young enough to be my son.
Hendrick's martini, please. Straight up with olives.
Hey. I like your style.
My entire body smiles back.
Thank you.
I want to ask what he sees. Does he know I'm a mom? 
Instead, I gather all of the candles from one end of the bar, vow to get my eyes checked soon, and tuck my head into a book.
The air is warm, the martini is cold, the music is loud. The room smells like chicken and potatoes and the late eighties: like my first years in New York City, all full of bigness and potential and the scariness of it all. 
I need food.
My eyes glide down the menu and get stuck on two of my favorite words: romaine and anchovies. 
I wave to my bartender son.
This salad looks exciting.
That salad is exciting.
Two seats down is a body dripping with tattoos, motorcycle leather, fatigue. He is old enough to be my husband.
He picks up his burger. I pick up my grilled romaine. He dips his fries in ketchup. I scoop up the creamy, smoky, fishy salad dressing with my bread. I moan yum. He sighs. He doesn't look to the right. I don't look to the left. We eat together. I feel safe.
I pay, pick up my martini, and head for the hotel elevator. I don't look back.
I climb up on the coffee table with my martini and watch the flashing lights of Manhattan through the floor-to-ceiling Brooklyn windows. I start to relive the thirteen years of pining and dreaming and never ever sleeping that I crammed into that little island. What did I do with all of that kid-free time? I didn’t even like anchovies back then.
I step down.
I lower the shades, wash the martini glass, and tuck myself into the soft and clean king-sized bed. No morning light, no buzzing phones, no barfing kids, no nothing will wake me up until I am ready.
You can find the recipe for Grilled Romaine Salad with Corn and Creamy Anchovy Garlic Vinaigrette in my column over at Food52.

16 comments:

  1. This was really just so wonderful to read. I could see, feel, and taste your words. Lovely.

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    1. seeing, feeling, tasting. that is always my goal. so happy when i get there for a few people. thank you for telling me.

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  2. Right there with you seeing and tasting....and imagining!

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  3. If you EVER write a book, I'll buy 50 of them...
    That's just *so* good! :)

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  4. the blogs I treasure & save to read when I can give them my full attention are those like yours. good writing counts for so much thank you

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    1. these comments are sinking in today in a big way. means so much. thank you.

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  5. I've lost count of how many times I've come back to re-read this post. Your description of that salad, the bartender, the nameless man eating his own meal, the relief of having a meal and then sleep all to yourself...your words, as always, resonate so deeply.

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